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I don’t want to be touched

Ugh, I just feel so disgusted.
I don’t want to be touched or kissed,  I pull away but he misses me so much
I don’t know if I can stay
I don’t want to be touched.

Idk if you guys are spiritual in a non secular or new age way / know what ‘an empath’ is but,

isn’t it funny that I don’t have depression when I live alone but I do when I’m around my father?

I have totally quit all substance use and been fine but after less than a week of this idk how I’m going to not smoke AND not hurt myself.

Fuck.

He hasn’t done anything wrong he’s just depressed and dramatic like a black cloud

Anonymous asked: I know how hard you find it to tell people what you think they don't want to hear, but it will be ok, in the long run it will be good for both of you, make yourself heard. You can do it. You are loved no matter what.

Thank you :)

Anonymous asked: Thats terrible. Sometimes theres no clear solution to those situations and you just have to try to conquer the pain that overcomes oyu. The concept of 1 lover fulfiling all our needs is crazy really.

Mmm well at least our communication is improving as my strength and confidence returns

Anonymous asked: hope youre feeling better real soon. i find the worst part is when the buildup of sexual tension gets to a point where it effects other parrts of the relationship. have you discussed open relationships with him at all?

Thanks and kinda. It’s complicated

My fingers smell amazing <3

I honestly loooove the smell of my pussy juices. Partner who doesn’t go down on me is missing the fuck out.

Looking forward to sorting out every problem in our relationship, verbal, emotional, sexual, using this opportunity of him doing something wrong as a growth experience (as long as it never happens again)

I will not be answering questions about it btw and yes I’m fine.

Anonymous asked: I agree, its hard being with one person, especially when there's a part of yourself that you don't get to express with them, I hope you don't let it make you feel trapped as hard as that can be.

:/ idk how much longer I can idk I’m just feeling pathetic and he only holds me when he’s horny and we fuck even if I’m sobbing because I just need to be held. I don’t have the words to say these things to him.

That feeling

draptorronin:

Where you’re in pain, but are numb at the same time. Also, it’s not a physical type of pain. It’s in your mind. Kinda. Like, you feel that everything is wrong about yourself, and yet you won’t change because changing yourself causes more pain and numbness.

That’s how I feel. Anyone else?

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:)

Anonymous asked: sry if this seems intrusive but i haven t seen you post anything about your love life for some time. did you have any partners on the horizon in the few month?

I haven’t been posting anythibg at all mate. I have a partner yes. He’s awesome. But I’m monogamous with him because I know that is what he needs and it is emotionally draining. I don’t believe that one person should be expected to fulfill all of another person’s needs, and even though he is the best boyfriend I have ever had he certainly doesn’t fulfil all of mine. Our sex life is a bit of a cavern of unintentional paternalism for instance, and he doesn’t know how to support my emotional needs regarding my verbal love language. I wish I could have a girlfriend too to be cutesy with and talk throygh stuff and actually give and recieve (?!!) cunnilingus and him actually be happy and supportive and feel secure. But he’s a Taurus.